Hang on!!!!

Ah the new year! I say that like it was yesterday... okay maybe a month or so ago but hey, better late than never!

Since my last post I've gotten married, had some amazing holidays and lost my FT job.

The highs trump the lows any day but it's the lows that actually keep us fresh and exciting in life. I didn't say I enjoyed them, but how we handle them and react to them is truly a testament of who we really are.

The last 3 weeks have been stunning. Since the loss of my job, I have gone through an emotional roller coaster that I didn't think I'd get on again... and I LOVE roller coasters! The lows came & went but it's the chance for new opportunity that keeps me on top of the first scary hill.

I now have an amazing opportunity to grow my yoga business into the career path I've always wanted and it is coming my way quickly. I've taken on 3 new classes and have been approached about an amazing private lesson opportunity... all in that same 3 week period.

So goody for me... BUT what has really impressed me is how I have handled my wish for REVENGE. My situation for losing my job is a very messy, legal battle that will most likely continue on for what could be the next few weeks or even months....which has conjured up a very old me...

I've had all of those conversations in my head that most likely will never happen... I've sent all of those emails in my head that I will never write, I've done some pretty devious things in my head all of which will never occur... BUT, those thoughts gave me little delusions of grandeur that held there own at the time.

On the flip side I have convinced myself that the more professional I handle this situation, the better... and as I hear more and more reports of what chaos has ensued since my absence, I know that the old saying "you make your bed" is actually applying working its magic.

I had a yoga teacher last year use teach us the mantra "these thoughts mean nothing to me". I loved it when I heard it and I use it often. It's the perfect mantra when the mind is out of control and the good old breath work just isn't enough. This recent life experience has just ramped up the mantras value to me.

So what exactly does that mean? Well, as I think about the conversation, the emails, and the devious things, I remind myself "These thoughts mean nothing to me" because as they happen, my blood pressure rises, my heart races, my pupils dilate, and my breath quickens... all for the purpose... of nothing. There is no gain, no reward, no hip-hip-hooray as these things all race through my mind. They affect me negatively and are simply a product of my environment. In other words... they are not real.... they are only thoughts.... thoughts that I control with myself and no one else.

So as I sit here and type, I know that my husband and I will continue having conversations about the situation, but my flavor for revengeful thoughts will quickly go bland. My life has become far more exciting, my approach more relaxed, my world less stressed, and all because...

These Thoughts Mean Nothing To Me.

Namaste